Diary of Blame

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Lets be the ambassador of the hawaii's
Grippin our baretta's, Sippin on amaretta's,
Prayin' for some aphrodites'
And Drinkin' those bahama mama's
while were soakin in the sauna's
Watchin the hot lava
Flow from the wreckage
Reakin' havoc on my prescence...
Do you even get my message?
The one thats got you tested?
The one thats got you so emotionally invested?
Damn your so neglected
Wait that's me, no need for a bullet proof vest, its'
Suggested that you stop your bullshit
So I can enjoy my conscience,
I just wanna enjoy my shares,
Like I'm in a stock split.
Man cause im so sick
Of this fuckin blame game
Arguments of damn shame
Drivin' Ryan's insane,
Gots my red face imflamed,
Forget the army,
I'll be what I aim,
yall dame lames the same,
So when I get back up,
i'll have already forgot your name,
this is my verbal campaign
for the presidency of fame
Ill wear my body armor,
like im batmans bruce wayne
Battlein' Bane,
So desperate to complain
mistaken for dramatic
But my emotions are soul train
As they're back and forth on the tracks
Pardon me while I flush you shits down the drain
If yall were already there,
Then I guess I missed you when you came
It's like I'm Thor mixed with the Diary of Jane
Analyzations of the brain
Or overanalyst of misconceptions
Serious as inhumane
Takin care of plots
Cynical as Hussein
Destructions of the Reign
Construction in the Rain
Such a messy vibe
To the foreman you must explain
But tell me, how's life in the fast lane?
Are you spittin lyrics from your 4 bang?
Or sniffin that cocaine?
Cause, your talkin out of your ass
So let me work your mouth like a puppet
You know you love it when I disrupt it
These written words have erupted.
Volcanic ash pillages the villages above it
I mean below it, just suck it, to vain?
We aint gotta be politically correct
In our Dairy of Blame...............................
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Only Words

Verse 1:
Searchin' for the anthem of angels
Like everyone else alive
A handsome devil left for ransom,
See the dark side in his eyes
Can you bring him back to life?
He would have never left your side, but
With the twisted games they played, and
The christian words they prayed
Those wishin' verbs they left to say,
Has left his body aching
The scars has left him on fire
Wheres the hope to fill his heart
The actions to replace the liars,
This slippery slope couldn't be any dryer...

Hook:
And yes they hurt..
You bury them under ground,
Now they taste like dirt,
I guess they're just fuckin words...

Bridge:
Theres a fine line between love and hate
And he tries, to find his place
Something always gets in the way
So he burns another page
And the sky fades to grey,
As she breaks away

Verse 2:
Tell me, how does it feel?
To say words you dont mean?
How does it feel?
To be another nickel plated submarine?
Going down in misery,
Without a sense of certainty?
Tell me, how does it feel?
To be hollowed with absurdity,
To never speak with an ounce of urgency?
To purposely never seek normalcy,
I guess without change,
This is how you seek diversity.
By hurting me...

Hook:
And yes they hurt..
You bury them under ground
Now they taste like dirt,
I guess they're just fuckin words...

Hard to Breath - B.O.B Sample

Verse 1:
When the lights go off
And the music fades
Eyes shutter like nervous words
You wake up and its just another day
The sleep time machine
Disrupting peace of this regime
Knots in my stomach
I try and keep head above it
but it's all I can do to not destruct it

Chorus:
And it's so hard to breath. 
And even more so to sleep
When no one cares. 
It was all I could need. 
but now im sinking so deep,
I can't come up for air...

Verse 2:
Take heed to what I'm giving you,
These lyrics are my ritual
Cause you cant handle the truth
When your lies become habitual
Who are you to critic sense?
Hard to trust without incidents
To me your guilty before you ever prove your innocents
Presistence but exist, isn't to much if they really care
Defenseless, is the way we feel when its to much to bare
Facilitating the urges to excel
Microsoft cant trump this well
Guess it's fuck the fairytale,
Leaving me with another sad story to tell

Chorus:
And it's so hard to breath. 
and even more so to sleep
when no one cares. 
It was all I could need. 
but now im sinking so deep,
I can't come up for air...

Verse 3:
Understand this isn't your regular radio rap
This aint about money, cars, and girls
I rap to wrap this rap before I snap
This is about how even when you have it all
It can still be hard to breath
Even while living in your means
Somebody wake me up from this dream
Why is it that everything I see, isn't what really seems
And 12 years I was down on bended knees
Prayin to a man that didn't believe, in me,
Maybe someday we'll meet
Maybe someday we'll see...
So I can tell him what I really think of this being...

Chorus:
And it's so hard to breath. 
and even more so to sleep
when no one cares. 
It was all I could need. 
but now im sinking so deep,
I can't come up for air...

Veres 4:
Bring it on society
While you sit there and lie-to-me
Need a priest and deacon
To shoot 'em down while I'm speakin'
That gibberish while im fightin demons
Cant deal with these heathons
Lookin at the flag, wonderin' wheres my freedom
Not good for my well being, so
Let me bring you to this soverign state
Better grab your cutting utensils
So I can show you what's at steak
I'm the appetizer before the entree
So full you can hardly stay awake
Sleep in peace, the only thing I want is an honest-lay
But no matter how much they beat on me, or
Take advantage of my leinancy
But no body loves a nobody
My apologies in advance, to the heavy bag
Imagine my hands as air slipping into the gloves
As the complexion fades to black,
It so hard to breath...

Star Gazed Lily

Broken stems, doused in pedals
Lost in space, beneath the meadows
Not always pretty underneath
With my single eyes
I star gaze gently, at the night sky
Buds open wide
To catch the time that flies
With no words of the wise
I stand alone, roots planted
inside im dying, outside disguised
The space between your heart and mind
Will heal together in time

Ultra violet rays
From the ozone layers
Deserted in the open sun
And drowning from the rain
The irised look of the crystal ball
Breathlessly hazing off into the fray
Peaceful in the eye of storms, then they
Wash away my roots that i've planted so deep down
Relentless wind waves our sorrows goodbye
Even we cry, when you rip us from the ground

Watch 'em grow as they grow up
They can't stop, even when its to much
We bow down,
When its easier to just give up
We slow down, and take a deep breath
We fall down, with out secrets
We make up, when the streets wet
But its never the same, again

No need for broken sorry's
The broken promises that we all see
Taking up space like all the weeds
Things should be easy with simplicity
If feelings didnt exist,
Unconditionally willing,
Just needing to be missed

But they, remind me of you
And I see inside the real you
The overrals that your heart wears
Its to much for her to care
But I wont ever give up
Cause she's the one, that i'll miss,
Remember the time, I felt your lips
At the resturaunt, you were so knew
To dating, it was so cute, and innocent
Why have those days just went, away
I just want you to stay with me
My pear shaped diamond,
My Star Gazed Lily.

I'll never forget...

Change Gotta Come

Verse 1:
Tired of feeling like the underdog
Underappreciated and underestimated, and
only designated with every lyrics I type
but mistunderstood with every line,
Everytime I rhyme,
I feel like im better than everyone writin' combined
So im gonna keep writin' till the day I die
yeah I may only be five nine and one seventy five
A sensitive guy with pockets of tears trapped in his eyes
but dont mistake my kindness for weakness,
Or you'll be surprised when the changes arise
Coming back as the strongest man alive
And carry this whole damn world on my back
With a verbal assault that trumps any attack
that you could physically plot on a map
So you can go two ways,
First is face first, second is your ass on the mat...
So if you have a problem with that, realize
Redemption is not something I lack

Hook:
Cause when the past is to much to bare
The scars affect the future,
When you can't overcome you,
Especially when trust issues ensue,
All you want to do is care
But Change Gotta Come
In order to make it through this nightmare.

Verse 2:
I fuck with the forces of darkness
stuck in the sources of hardships
And I burn to twist them words
Like a tornadic arsonist
Cause this road im on, is
Another uphill battle
Climbing up the same old ladder
They say insanity is doing,
The same thing over and over again
But i can't stop this pattern of madness
And it's hard enough goin at it alone
Without a trust in ones soul
can anyone feel my pain
anyone feel my struggle,
does anyone understand the voices?
the doubting demons in your mind
that drown out all the good times
I understand why kurt cobain
blew out all his brains
my daddys daddy did just the same
Its hard not to symphathize the pain
With death such a thoughtless tradegy
Are we strong enough to co-exist?
Yep, i'll never let the depression get the best of me
And, if the world ends now
I'll help tear it down
and come back reborn
in the form of a fighter slash writer
Finally willing to let my guard down,
In hope of the voices gettin' quieter,
Ready to take it all on the chin
Just hope its not to late, to win.

With Her...

Beneath the Velvet stars
Heaven only knows, wheres she's from
More stunning than any solo guitar
Blows me away like a machine gun
She has the gift of taking away all the pain
So in return, I write a lullabye for her, today

She's the piercing blue sky in my eyes
And the weather, is clearer than ever
I reside in her faith as my pride, so
No more cloudy days, overcasted with rain
She stays with me like the sun risin' up over the horizon
And it never looked so good setting in the distance

With her...
I could stay inside all day
Back to that familiar place
And truth be told,
No matter where we're at
It feels like home
With her...

We laugh at stupid things
With the same sense of humor
With nothing but happiness to gain
Our love isn't just a fairy tale or a rumor
With her, victory I've reclaimed
Reigniting the flames

And, when she mows the lawn
Ill be waiting on the other side
And the grass is always greener after it pours
But with her, the grass is alwasy greener when she's mine
And I've crossed that line, My evergreen tree
No plastic radiohead vines...

With her...
I could stay inside all day
Back to that familiar place
And truth be told,
No matter where we're at
It feels like home
With her...

Feel like an uplifting waterfall
Everytime that telephones rings
And everytime she calls
I hear the song it sings
As a picture illuminates the screen
Of a three and a half carat diamond ring

Reminds me of one of my favorite lines
Its cya later, and never good-bye
And I hope someday she can realize
That she and I were meant to collide
And while the dawn is breaking
I see a light shining through
When its time to awaken
I'll forever be holding onto you

With her...
I could stay inside all day
Back to that familiar place
And truth be told,
No matter where we're at
It feels like home
With her...

Good-bye L.A

Lost in a trance
May be my last chance
Stripped down to nothingness
Can we save this last dance?
Cause I'm left alone in my own emptiness, with
So many sleepless nights of hopelessness
Haunting me with this Bitterness
Taunting me with its Innocence.
No more shadows and regrets
Wishin' for the best, while
Letting go of the rest
No note left on the dress-er
Every road sign signaling away
Good-bye L.A

Kevlar vest shields dispel a body armor
Dont let the cloths fool you
Even though I'd never ever harm, or
Ever touch a soul, that
I never meant to charm her
Unless she was the one
Then in fact she'd sound the alarm, or
She's like the missing 2 dollar bill,
And the lost change that I aim to garner
They dont know what they are missin'

Flashes glissin' as the snakes are hissin'
And i was left without a single pot to piss in'
I feel let down
Cause the faces stay the same
I see shadows of who I used to be
As I drive so slow through this memory
Slowly driving me insane
Now my foots on the gas
Cowards as my friends
I'm mistaken as an ass
Sours my helping hand I lend

Relapse to Recovery
The Smell of Gasoline
Adapt to Skullduggery
Too slick like Vasoline
Skipping all the pages,
Like an Ad in a magazine
And its not a Shore thing unless its Jersey
The Fog floating above the ocean is blurry
But when I place that seashell to my ear
It's such a beautiful noise that I hear
"Good-Bye L.A"
Hello my dear

My Radio

Drivin' ninety nine in a fifty five
Speedin on seventy five, plottin it all by design
Cause if love is blind, I guess im a bit traumatized
So, Foots on the gas a little more
Searchin for a signal to endure
You are my radio

Escaping the town I've only known
The only place I've called home
Never been one to be alone
But I've always done okay on my own
Fear of dying with no one to carve it in stone
But now I'm hitting the open road
To see my radio

Changing stations on the open lanes
Losin reception over dried up plains
FM from AM to PM
From interstates to highways,
Eye spy and Simon says,
All of the songs repeat the same
I miss my radio

Every song reminds me of you
Every lyric and every note
You're like the poetry of an artist
More beautiful with every stroke
And every line of rhymes I hear that resemble you I see
The past in the rearview and the future in front of me
Cause now that you are here, the rest is history
Reminscing on my radio

Never thought I would be
One of the lucky ones
Countless cars and empty fun
Pockets of dollars up in my wallet
I thought my antennae was wearin thin,
Yet you came along to re-start it
Where in the world have you been?
Finally found my radio

Just know I listen to every word you say
Reminence on all the trips we made
Your love for range rovers, and grace potter
One day we can tell our daughters
About all the good times we had,
And our memories will never Fade
Listening to our music,
Keepin' us energetic on the busy freeway
Listening to my radio.

And I'll never change the channel on my radio,
Cause the station is stuck like a lawn knom
Which means its stuck on repeat
Every where I go, and now im no longer alone
So everynight I'll pick up that phone
Just to hear my radio

Ballad of a Lighthouse

Verse 1:
The means to my existence
The push to my resistence
Shes the fruition of a goddess
The translation of air pockets
As she takes my breath away
Leaving my heart is warming dissaray

Chorus:
She's as precious as a feather,
When she asked her questions,
She said, "Can I keep us together,"
I said, "Only if its forever,
Cause you're the sun to my weather"

Verse 2:
I was standing all alone
On the shore of oblivion
But off in the distance,
Her radiance appeared
A lighthouse amongst one,
The one I'd been searching for years

Chorus:
She's as precious as a feather,
When she asked her questions,
She said, "Can I keep us together,"
I said, "Only if its forever,
Cause you're the sun to my weather"

Bridge:
My guiding light that expands across the oceans
My helping hand when my mind seems at war
My melody that keeps the lyrics afloatin'
She's the only one, the one that I adore

Verse 3:
I believe shes an angel from the heavens
If such thing exist
A princess of magical kingdoms
And my love will always persist
Cause when the lights dim in the city,
She's the only one I miss

Chorus:
She's as precious as a feather,
When she asked her questions,
She said, "Can I keep us together,"
I said, "Only if its forever,
Cause you're the sun to my weather"

Life in the Fast Lane

Verse 1:
This is the beginning of a massacre
A verbal onslaught constructed out of  plastered words
Gonna need that No Xplode just to hold ya own
Caffinated on Ice, Super cold from down below
I do it big like that Mayweather crib
Live for the speed like Pacquiao on the heavy bag
Rather die in the fast lane that drive myself insane
I quiet satan so the devil dont make a sound
The best throwin down pound for pound
Ready for the next round
Before I ever hear the bell sound
New goal is 200 on the dash, cause
Got so many horses this car should be parked in the pasture of...
Where the copper pendants dangle from the seams
Conductors of electricity dont belong, know what I mean?
Cause this ones to make a statement
With my biblical hethens make one laugh as lyrical hyena's
And if you cant handle that, throw in your resignation
No time for bad times thinkin with criminally insane minds
Smash the trash and create diamonds out of that, we shine
Cash in at that ATM as its malfunctionin',
Till you realize theres a camera on you, hand up like you blind
To late now, already an accomplice to the crime
No going back in time, like Sheldon in his dreams
Now your opinions have opinions, opinionated california king
Settle for the second biggest like the bed of a queen
But they ain't to keen,
When you speak your mind and they dont understand your rhymes
They intellectually hindered by they're own hind sight
Blinded by the lime light of these words I spit,
Not afraid to put you on or call you out on it,
Yall cant match my grit
Yall cant match my wit,
Tryna think of a comeback and ill smash that shit,
But dont give up, cant finish if you quit
Bazinga, you aint gonna win even if you admit
Your defeat on national Tv with a indirect tool kit
I'll put you in like the end of a drill bit
And you'll benefit from every action I conceed to commit
Cause I'm....

Chorus:

Livin' life in the fast lane
Movin' at the speed of life and I can't slow down
Only got a gallon in the gas tank
But I'm almost at the finish line, so I can't stop now
I don't really know where I'm headed, just enjoyin' the ride
Just gon' roll 'til I drop and ride 'til I die
I'm livin' life in the fast lane (Pedal to the metal)
I'm livin' life in the fast lane (Pedal to the metal)

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Pharaoh in the Flesh

Verse 1:
I take these pills, to benefit my skin
While other take these pills, to rid them thin
Everyday we try to look our best
Somedays when I'm alone I pretend I am free
It's almost believe-able that im blessed
I Try everything to make them see me
But they only see me for who I can't be

Chorus:
Why do I always feel so misunderstood
Everyone else writing, while im left wronged
It's Like Ancient Egyption Hieryglyphics
On the surface I am strong
Even though inside I'm one big mess
A Pharaoh in the Flesh

Verse 2:
Feels like im setting myself on fire
Like Im walking on a Wire
With Stringer Bell and Barksdale
I can never dream, no matter how tired, I am
And here I am, inside my flaming hell
To stubborn to ask for help
To distant for anyone to tell
That all I need is a peaceful farewell

Chorus:
Why do I always feel so misunderstood
Everyone else writing, while im left wronged
It's Like Ancient Egyption Hieryglyphics
On the surface I am strong
Even though inside I'm one big mess
A Pharaoh in the Flesh

Verse 3:
A pharoah is weak, A pharoah is strong
Whether im right, Or the weather is wrong
And while the cased tombs are solid, all along
Mummified bodies represent where dead ends, belong
Full of fear in ones skin, And the weakness of giving in
Pushing through the heaviest doors that wont open
Tied up as my body lies, again and again
And as the Emperors rise above the pyramids
Giza will still be standing in the end

Chorus:
Why do I always feel so misunderstood
Everyone else writing, while im left wronged
It's Like Ancient Egyption Hieryglyphics
On the surface I am strong
Even though inside I'm one big mess
A Pharaoh in the Flesh

Prisoner of the Mind

Intro: It's like...
I dont know, man,
No matter what I do
I just can't beat this
I've had 2 weeks of freedom
But now it's back, with a vengeance

Verse 1:
Volcanoes erupted,
I've got so much to say,
Thoughts interrupted, Tryna keep 'em at bay
The noise is corrupted, I wait for the silence
Lay in my cell, made outta clay
Endless thoughts of destruction
When I drop the hammer down,
It sounds like the base of  percussion
Along with those violent strings
As I hear the thunder sing
Wonder what the lightning may bring
Lingering restless,
I'm no more than a single thing

Chorus:
Resolutions resolve over time
Solutions soon sewn in decline
Tried out a smile, but replaced it with a cry
Tired of standing in line of a dozen dimes,
Still trapped where my vines intertwine,
Baracaded behind bars,
Prisoner of the mind

Bridge:
These dymorphic illusions
Cause hysteria among us
It's barely an escape to write this
The oil well has been primed, Still a
Prisoner of the mind

Verse 2:
I aim for the world,
As im lost in the woods,
I wait for the words
But I dont hear a sound
Observed all the hurd-les
Squared surfacess are getting circled
As I hide in a shell with the turtles
Ache like tunnel syndrome in a car-pool
Now why cant I be the fighter
That I've always trained to be
And I've casted the shadows, of
Where I've been aiming to be
But I can no longer pretend
That ill always be here till the end
Reaching out for someone to save me
Very few with a helping hand to lend
For a broken mind to mend

Chorus:
Resolutions resolve over time
Solutions soon sewn in decline
Tried out a smile, but replaced it with a cry
Tired of standing in line of a dozen dimes,
Still trapped where my vines intertwine,
Baracaded behind bars,
Prisoner of the mind

Outro:
Sheetrock can't hold me
The skin on my knuckles dont protect me
Cause the noises I still play in my head
Touch my own skin,
I prayer for them to rid, cause when
They are gone, its the only place,
I feel strong, the only place I feel safe

So Opinionated

Intro:
Explain it, I had a way back then
Losing it all on my own
I had a heart back then
But the king has been overthrown
And I’m not sleeping now
The dark is too cold
And I’m not keeping up
The strength I need to push me
You show the lights that stop me, turn to stone
You shine it when I'm alone
And so I tell myself that I'll be strong
And dreaming when they're gone
Cause they're calling, calling, calling me home
Calling, calling, calling home
You show the lights that stop me, turn to stone
You shine it when I'm alone

Verse:
So what are you going to stand for?
To many underground bombs on the land mind floor.
Never used to acknolwedge what was up, was always down
With knowledge second to none, but had to dumb it down, but now
Im on my never back down from my stance flow
Was just hard to make it stop but now I'm back from out below
Let me explain that contradiction, my wants and needs lie in competition
And its hards to stay on top when walking with such extreme oppositions
I mean if u in labor 24 hours and feel like dyin, just name 'em Keifer,
And keep on tryin, to get up outta that baby bump slump,
Better climb a mountain full of pain killers a little steeper
Once your on high on life, you wont need to smoke the reefer
So when you find a girl you love, getta tight grip and keep 'er
And when shit ain't goin your way, then flush it down the drain
Look yourself in the mirror and this is what you'll say
You will never be the death of me, let me show you what is left of me
Now let me show the means of this records expectancy,
Means I've perfected this recipe of infamous tenancy
While I infiltrate my weaponry, i'll illuminate the melody
I'd get up everything I have, and I mean everything
Just to reach that magnitude of greatest, that level of ecstacy
And for the ones that like to ignore me and my pleasantry,
You're officially wrote off from my new level of pedigree, and
They ask why his realness in writing is so rebelious
And why his never failures only amounts to wealth-ness
Thats why with my last check, I purchased a damn vette
And an Armani track jacket made outta velvet, yet ill probabley shelf-it
Cause when you watchin' that plasma in high definition
Theres not a single need for a commercial intermission
Yeah my pockets my glissin'
With diamonds on my wrist that your wife is missin'
Now I know we all cant have Tag Heuer bands and platinum rings
Cause they cost about tweleve hundred k
Some have to settle for a Michael Kors chain,
Cause its a whole lot cheaper than payin for that swiss name
But me? I'll never live it up in those boondocks
Flip the script on them chicks who think their shit smells like perfume shops,
Help 'em find beauty without a magazine or movie...
I want to bring that sexy back, not enough I Love Lucy's
And while im waiting on a compromise,
I proceeed with these unconscious eyes,
It's like everytime I turn around...
Warning alerts come on the news that that sixty occupies
Another white female kidnapped, reports falsified as she dies,
But I promise better things are to come
Been doing this since I was young
I keep pursuin' this for my future son
Superhuman to some, cause
Ruined relationships over chasin the sum,
Never let my family try to make it in the slums, but
Even when the economy's down, we'll be on that up, plus
I'll never let them drown in a sea of numb whale humps,
Do you get it? Damn dumb muts? What?
And I know Im so damn opinionated
So opinionated that I finally feel alleviated
From the pain that I feel I'll make up a new word to date-it,
I haven't just achieved a new purpose, I've Achieviated
Cause the grass is always greener when its appreciated...

Outro:
Explain it, I had a way back then
Losing it all on my own
I had a heart back then
But the king has been overthrown
And I’m not sleeping now
The dark is too cold
And I’m not keeping up
The strength I need to push me
You show the lights that stop me, turn to stone
You shine it when I'm alone
And so I tell myself that I'll be strong
And dreaming when they're gone
Cause they're calling, calling, calling me home
Calling, calling, calling home
You show the lights that stop me, turn to stone
You shine it when I'm alone