I dont fit in with this Nightmare

I listen to laughs,
all day long
without the glimpse of a smile on my face
and while my nostrils flare
my eyes never stare
getting harder to breath this air,
cause I dont fit in
with this nightmare

When will it all end
This is a dream I dont want
to ever come true
but reality is I can't live a lie
and this is what is causing me to try
to get out
cause I dont fit in
with this nightmare

Fight or flight,
for the rest of my life,
I'm always awake, dreaming
day in and day out
night in and night owl
given up and let down
This isn't fair
I dont fit in
with this nightmare

You take all my money
you take all my time
my patience is really getting, tested
all the years that I waste
caressing your face
has now left me feeling, empty
I feel like im trapped
in a dungeon or lair, cuz
I dont fit in
with this nightmare

I eat healthy for you
but what do you do
you turn around and just complicate things
so I lock myself up
in my dark, musty room
so that your not as visible anymore
if we played truth or dare
I'd shred every care, cuz
I dont fit in
with this nightmare