A better place

Verse 1:
Once upon a long time ago
I remember watchin' a man out in the field, while he mow
My dad tells me now, that he sees you in me
But I, just dont know what to believe
is it a fragmented fantasy or just, conjoined memories
Or maybe it's to distract him of how it really was, a beautiful catastrophe
Came into the world in '22, by 16 he had a gun
growin up to be a father, with a daughter and a son,
a teenage brother, and for killin others
he was awarded with purple heart galore
got shot for this country, wife left him while he was at war
for another man, doesn't that just make you mad
I think we all take for granite, at everything that we have
I just cant imagine the shit he seen
A real hurt locker, without the movie screen
still fighting battles, sixteen to seventy, night terrors, and bad dreams
I still wonder what it all really means
but he had had enough of it all, and now that time has settled in
We realize how a great man goes out, on his shield, like a true veteran

Chorus:
I'm not ashamed that he took his life
He had the courage to stand and fight
And when doctors took away all his dignity
He realized he lived a quarter trilogy
so he took his gun in hand, and just like trinity
He no longer had to clinch his Jaw, to hide the pain in his face
shot himself right in the temple, and took him to a better place

Verse 2:
I remember before it all happened
He hopped in the truck and went to see all the old places he used to visit
just to grace them with his prescence
All is life he was treated like a peasant,
A good man down with still faith in god, on his last visit to Heaven
He stopped by the lake, where he used to fish everyday
He'd bring home food, and watched us all eat crappie fillet
but not on that day, or better yet night it was
my dad has just left his house, never knew what would come next
I had a soccer game that next day, my dad showed up with no tears left
He didnt' leave a note, except for the will he wrote
on a piece of paper, leavin my dad the land and boat
but that's not all he wrote
and now that he's gone, he hardly had any money to cherish
but no amount of money could bring him back, Rest in Peace he'd parish
he went out on his own, didn't cry for help, yet he was all alone
makes all our problems miniscal, trying to overcome 2 years of pnemon
but he had that Swedish Blood in him, he was fast and tall
from the stories I was told,  He could overcome it all

Chorus:
I'm not ashamed that he took his life
He had the courage to stand and fight
And when doctors took away all his dignity
He realized he lived a quarter trilogy
so he took his gun in hand, and just like trinity
He no longer had to clinch his Jaw, to hide the pain in his face
shot himself right in the temple, and took him to a better place

Verse 3:
Nineteen Eighty Eight, Not sure what to say, mime this government Crime
He's Passin' the torch to me, Sent here to change yalls minds
I tried to seek out a mentor to gain some needed answers
all was left was questions, a denomination of cancerous advancers
Churches tried to tell me suicide, is an unforgivable sin
I say it's like taking a shot on the button, right on the chin
Not layin' down for nothin, layin it all out, not gettin' pinned
But your body was gettin' scrawny and thin,  you found a way to win
He pulled that trigger with no hesitation, and although he swore his declaration
he was fighting for himself, no longer for this alien-nation
You took that pistol and made it whistle and inside you blew
as your head lay down on the pillow case where you resurrected to
A better place, blood spattered walls, you cant erase
the times we had, was never enough time to race
I miss you, grandpa, I truly do
I love my daddy, and he loves you too
So im writin' this in the memory of you

Outro:
I wish you could see me now
and how wealthy your son is,
because as a kid, neither of you were very well off
And I think because of you, he's made sure to give me everything he didn't have
not in spite of you, but out of gratitude of the man you raised
Even as hard as you were on him,
he was hard on me too
And he tells me that you would never believe the kind of cars that I own right now
And if you were still around, and my vette had more than 2 seats
We'd all take one last drive, together
Because no matter how different our lives we're
We all shared a common passion
And I would do anything to see my dad smile to see your smile again

Pathological Ways

Verse 1:
Man if I would've known what I know now
I would have brought my head down out of that cloud
but I was dumb, to numb from the mushroom shroud
I was to damn proud

Imagine me in a padded room

locked up due to dillusions of you
Wishin' what you said would ever bare truth
So what' the hell am I supposed to do?
I think I spoke to soon, 
when day turns to night, your left with a luminiscent hue
as the moon overlooks the landscape of all the dark avenues
to remind us that not all light can outlast one spark, or two
Noah's arc, already wasted half a night buildin this boat
to overcome the flood of blood I wrote, now all thats left is the simpliest note,
coat is on, hope this piece of wood will be able to float and on
left bangin' on the walls, callin' out to you, left to crawl, man i'm gone
not everything is black and white, dark or light, simple and plain
ill never lose this fight in me, I think I deserve an explanation
and if you're gonna lie, better be high on cocaine
that way I can excuse your explain
Struck in your ways

Chorus:
It's ridiculous , And still I stick with this
I'm sick of this , But, in my sickness and addiction
You're addictive as they get
Evil as they come, vindictive as they make 'em
My friends keep asking why I can't just walk away
I'm addicted to the pain, the stress, the drama
I'm drawn to shit I guess, I'm a mess
Cursed and blessed,
But this time I ain't changing my mind
I'm climbing out this abyss
Pathological with this shit

Verse 2:
Problematic, I'm so problematic,
that I'm probabley a problem addict
Nothin' better or worse than catchin someone in a lie
It's good to ease your wondering, but its hard on your mind
They tell you one thing, and then tell the world another, Why?
you start to question your fling, or was it a cling smother?  Bye
To many secrets to uncover, Sayin'
You got it you got it bad like Usher Raymond
Why they're busy seekin' out a million lovers, the rest of us are left to wonder
Screamin' out so loud that your esophagus is lead to suffer
throat cancer is gone, so lets get in on, with Michael Buffer
Got to pull a Gaga and reveal our poker face in order to defeat the bluffer
I'm on my Marshall Mathers shit, goin from Relapse to Recover
Reconciling the Bad Meets Evil, I'll slaugher the entire house of teenage adulter-y
I'm sick of the skulduggery, you're livin' a life of distorted luxury
Blasphamy,  your words are left a little rubbery
Whatever you say no longer sticks like glue, only one thing left to do,
Signed up for the game, shoulders left to Carry, now own the sidelines again with-Drew
Get it?

Chorus:
It's ridiculous , And still I stick with this
I'm sick of this , But, in my sickness and addiction
You're addictive as they get
Evil as they come, vindictive as they make 'em
My friends keep asking why I can't just walk away
I'm addicted to the pain, the stress, the drama
I'm drawn to shit I guess, I'm a mess
Cursed and blessed
But this time I ain't changing my mind
I'm climbing out this abyss
Pathological with this shit

Verse 3:
Sick of the game, Sick of the same
Sick of the shame, Sick of the pain
Im Bruce Wayne batteling Bane
Sick of bein' the only single college graduate who remains
I pick up the plain Jane, She flushes me down the drain
Garbage disposal, hows that for humane?
Why do we treat others this way? my name is not Hussein
My brain is poundin', givin' me a migraine, I think I'm going insane
gonna cause me to pop some excedrin a-gain
pill bottle top will obsessibly win
maybe i'll hit my bottom tommorrow
and thats just part of my false bravado
I can be a dick, but thats not my motto
an easy way out would be to win the lotto
but I'd rather work hard for it all, like Cus D'amata
never tell a lie just to hit full throttle
never sell a cry just to taddle a toddle
If we the people told the truth,
I wouldnt have trust issues
you contront them, yet they ignore you
cause I see you, the real you
trying to cover up whats inside you
and everything you do is make believe
Yeah your hott, but that's not cool
I can't just sit here and watch it all burn
I dont want you to suffer, but I want you to learn

Dead Precedence

Underneath it all
Im Yelawolf mixed with the taste of a Jay Gatsby
a library full of empty books to impress a Daisy
I would call upon Doctor Reed,
to scrutinize this absordity of my disease
just wanting the world to see my wealth
even if it affects my own health
and i know that it means more to me
than it does anyone else
Flashin' around dead presidents
has left one with...
Dead Precedence

We are judged by how we appear
and im daunted by all fear
that I miss all obstacles of someone getting near
becasue I dont want them to see what's underneith it all
up close I seem short, but from a distant I may appear tall
and as fashion changes nearly every year
it cost a little dough just to steer clear of all the old gear
while you do your shopping online instead of at a mall
You risk gettin the wrong size as the green from the trees fall
Tryin' to look like the models but the models are photoshopped,
I'm appalled, but as soon as the ball drops
I pump the brakes on the urges that ease my case to stop

I showered around 5 that day
slipped on the 501's
as I got dressed after towel dried me away
with the Michael Kors watch on
Leather shoe boots warmed the feet
underneith were cheap socks that no one could see
Hanes shirt below a Ralph Lauren Polo
I may look the part of a bachelor, but usually riding solo
Just don't let anyone know
that it's all just for show
Please regard me when leavin' this out of the Bio

But this was about her in the end
took her out to eat
along with good conversa-tion
an elegant figure turned my strength to weak
and I think I impressed her with my casualty
a gentleman I'd be, opening the door for her to sit down in the seat
of a flashy car non the less
We drove around town
I was left without a frown
things started to look up as soon as I stopped looking down
and I'm meeting her again in a few days
to meet my friends on new years
Can't wait to hear what they say
And Im back, I found a new way
to approach it all with patience
slowly drinkin' from this Koolaid
It's a new day
Dead Precedence has ceased
cause things are HD when lookin through a blu-ray

Sophisticated Means

Hey you. It's me again.  I'm not sure if you are actually reading this but it can't hurt to dive into another daunted sea of emasculating thought.  Im compelled by a few actions of late, mainly that affect my life in general but also by those that are making those choices for me much easier.  I've always been one to seek out what I wanted, and since knowing what I want has always come easy to me, it's always been rather easy to accomplish my goals.  I strive for perfection but understand that it doesnt exist, but it keeps civil and moral aptitude high.  I'm not sure what people consider down to earth, but maybe it's time I come down for a visit to see what it is like for awhile.  I do feel like I need a vacation after all.

Sophistication is defined as being an expert or having knowledge of some techincal subject.  Many people I find think they know everything, especially about relationships.  Those same people never fail to surprise me with their lack of sophistication.  If you say you want something, but sit around and do absolutely nothing to obtain that something, dont be upset when that something moves on. In a world where all we seemingly do is fight, I'm exasperated at the lack of fight some people have in them.  If you are going to give up on me, someone who I believe is worth fighting for, then I seek no sorrow in your wallowous agony of me choosing to give up hope on you.  There are many options out there, and I may have already found one.  And I would rather go down in a blaze full of fist and fury, than ever giving up my right and  desire to fight for the things that I believe in and want in order to find happiness.  Because the last thing I want is to end up alone.

My constant battle with erosion and self worth appear to have been defeated by recent applications of divine intervention.  Another thought provoking theory would involve me overcoming my demons masked by insecurities with mental empathy for myself.  In the arms of the person that brought me into this world, I seeked relief and love.  And was awarded with such that made one realize it would all be ok , eventually.  Time heals all wounds were told, even when the wounds are present for the world to see on a daily basis.  We still must present our face to others, admist all the imperfections that haunt us.  I've learned that what we see as an individual aren't what others see.  And that perception is the key in overcoming any obstacle that gets in your way.  I've never had a positive outlook on things, mainly because im aware of the negativity that is close behind.  But I'm trying to practice those methods, even as I type this, I still struggle to fall back in as the man I was even a few weeks ago.  And although the appearance that I reflect reveals a man that Im confident about right now, who knows how long that eerie presence will stay.

For the time being, my hope has been brought back alive.  I almost hate to mention this because im afraid once it's out there, the inevitable will sit in.  But I can't hide from my feelings and my hopes.  I met someone.  A beautiful young woman who has inspired me to write again. Lyrics would only delude everything that I needed to say, so another passage I began.  I finally had the confidence to go out into the world and meet her, and my expectations we're met with a pleasant surprise.  And before you ask, yes I will see her again.  Not just because she's one of the cutest things I've ever seen, but because of her sweet and interesting personality that I find compelling enough to pursue.  Sure there's only been one date, but its enough to bring my hope back to a table that was only serving ramen noodles to my soul.  Food for thought.

Even if all odds turn against me again, and least I have the strength to know that I can overcome them.  Especially when I have friends and family who are there to support me through it all.  Even if she turns out to not be the one, I still have hope that she is out there.  Through my writing I speak to the world, I speak to her, and I speak to you.  Let me bow out gracefully this time.  Let me recapture the for-beaten path and guide me to an everlasting solitude of delightfulness.  I want to be happy.  I think that's all anyone wants.  I dont want to forget about all the people that are no longer in my life, no longer my significant other or friend, but I do want to put them behind me so that I can move on in a way that suggest I'm ok with it all.  So that I can transform into a person that is accepted by the outside world and not just by the inner circle I've created.  I've got to get this right this time.  Contentment is no longer an option.  My own self is worth saving. 

Sophisticated Means. 

Fly Away

Verse 1:
Every planet in the sky
has a different shape, size, and seperate moons
for our eyes to behold among the wise,
And now as we watch all the million stars align
in the form of constellations, we see the meteors fly
we're taken back to a place when no one knew why
and the only tale told was the one based on a lie
but in the midst of it all,  we're told stories by our eldors
that involved turning an entire run down mall, into the towns city hall
And whether its bull or not, you might as well believe in something good
when the bad is just another way of saying shoulda, woulda, could
So lets make like some second hand lions
fly a plane through a barn, and start livin before we start dyin'
you only live once, might as well live it far,
off into a galaxy where the milky ways are chocalate
and snicker bars cover the landscape of mars

Hook:

Some people ask me, where I’ve been lately
They thought I fell off, nobody could save me
I play in the background, I don’t back down
So don’t get it twisted, tryna play me
First I come out, they underate me
Then I come back, still try to fade me
They say I’m nasty, say I’m crazy
Ask what I think, I say maybe
I fly away
It ain’t nothin’ in my way so I may aswell fly away
It ain’t nothin’ else to say so I may aswell fly away

Verse 2:
What ever happened to settling down in a niche
now divorce can come after a twenty year itch
I know that people rift, drift away and fall apart
especially if the signifcant other becomes rich, but from the start
we see that stones, and bricks are what build a foundation
but even as we grow old, we're still a youth of a nation
we make changes that hurt others, disguised our true colors
just make sure you remain true to your real brothers
cause blood runs deeper than any lake or ocean
no river ran dry can transcend the universal token
the one thats never broken, once cold but now gloatin'
lighting up today cause today is still open
be true to yourself and golden rule the others
because without them your just one among another
and life isn't a place that you want to go through on the road to recover-y
but when the moments to late, the other moments are free
you may think you're better as one, but we're better as a we

Hook:

Some people ask me, where I’ve been lately
They thought I fell off, nobody could save me
I play in the background, I don’t back down
So don’t get it twisted, tryna play me
First I come out, they underate me
Then I come back, still try to fade me
They say I’m nasty, say I’m crazy
Ask what I think, I say maybe
I fly away
It ain’t nothin’ in my way so I may aswell fly away
It ain’t nothin’ else to say so I may aswell fly away

Verse 3:
Skyrockets in flight
lifting off from take off as the dust uncovers the night
what an unvariable sight
burned into our retina's is an impressionable light
seen from the atmosphere, no time to panic, fear
is a just another voice in your head
that even Iron Mike would hear
Gotta accept it for what it is
and if the spaceship blows up
then the Fourth of July came early in winter in Decem.
But chances are, everything will go right
if you see the good in people
and people see that you have the right intentions, they might
just surprise you a little, hypnotize you with a riddle
There would be no hate or envy if people really knew how long you had been stuck in the middle
of your individual demons, overcome by leisions
of neurological incompetence, mascaraded by creedance
but now in a position to think about what I am and what Iwere
going to enjoy watching it drift away like the flash, with a blur

I dont fit in with this Nightmare

I listen to laughs,
all day long
without the glimpse of a smile on my face
and while my nostrils flare
my eyes never stare
getting harder to breath this air,
cause I dont fit in
with this nightmare

When will it all end
This is a dream I dont want
to ever come true
but reality is I can't live a lie
and this is what is causing me to try
to get out
cause I dont fit in
with this nightmare

Fight or flight,
for the rest of my life,
I'm always awake, dreaming
day in and day out
night in and night owl
given up and let down
This isn't fair
I dont fit in
with this nightmare

You take all my money
you take all my time
my patience is really getting, tested
all the years that I waste
caressing your face
has now left me feeling, empty
I feel like im trapped
in a dungeon or lair, cuz
I dont fit in
with this nightmare

I eat healthy for you
but what do you do
you turn around and just complicate things
so I lock myself up
in my dark, musty room
so that your not as visible anymore
if we played truth or dare
I'd shred every care, cuz
I dont fit in
with this nightmare

Why can't you just walk away?

Verse 1:
I know that while you're here
that I will, be alone
and I've gone to many nights with you next to me
and I know that while you're here
my destiny's long,
awaited for but maybe someday you'll go
but until then, I'll just do what I do
even if it means I end up, crying
and im sorry that it hurts me so deeply inside
cause of what is there on the outside
just tell me why?

Chorus:
What's making you stay?
why won't you just go away?
Even if it's just for, today
I treat you better than I do, anyone that I know of
I take care of you constant-lay
but you dont feel the same
you just want to stay,
attached with implications
so now I'm just wishing away
and for your riddance I pray,
someday,
why can't you just walk away?

Verse 2:
I have so many thoughts, and questions for you
why must you eat me, up all day long
and why must you smoother me, vaguely
what have I done to make you be mine
I try, but you don't go away
when all I ever wanted, was someone to stay
but this is what, I'm left with
I feel so tired, so weak, and alone
cuz you're the only one that knows
how you, affect me
just tell me why?

Chorus:
What's making you stay?
why won't you just go away?
Even if it's just for, today
I treat you better that I do, anyone that I know of
I take care of you constant-lay
but you dont feel the same
you just want to stay,
attached with implications
so now I'm just wishing away
and for your riddance I pray
someday
why can't you just walk away?

Verse 3:
All I can do is fixate on you
cause you control my inner demons, not tamely
I scream out to you, loud
but you pull me back in
I just wish that they wouldn't underestimate me
now all I ever wanted was to lose you
and I can't hold on very long
I know you just want to stay
I repeat, I dont feel the same
Cause inside you're killing me, softly
Cause you weren't supposed to stay
this long or this way
This has never been a love/hate relation
Since the day I met you
I was drawn too,
but now I just wanna let you go
and I know, that you knkow
that I won't miss you so
once you're gone
I've been waiting so long
so just tell me why?

Chorus:
What's making you stay?
why won't you just go away?
Even if it's just for, today
I treat you better that I do, anyone that I know of
I take care of you constant-lay
but you dont feel the same
you jsut want to stay,
attached with implications
so now I'm just wishing away
and  for your riddance I pray
someday
why can't you just walk away?

Outro:
I just want you to please,
just please walk away
and im beggin', I'm beggin', dont stay
I get down on my knees
and pray for the day
that you just walk away
that you just walk away
why can't you just walk away
just walk away

The Impossible Possible

I only got one verse,
so notify the nurse
let her know that the gear that I'm goin in
has no reverse, 
no need to protect your purse
cause all I will take is your time
these words will reimburse
Lets Begin....
Lets make the impossible, possible
till our blood, sweat, and tears
drip from every last folical
even if it's illogical
or out of this world, astronomical
we'll defy logic
in the order of chronologic
from the biologic to geological
stayin on top of things
like our medication is topical
our psychological methodology
is theoretic and neurological
indeed we are the prodigal,
son, best believe we are made of
more than atoms and particles
Readin' Penny's hypothesized articles
of the Big Bang Theory
while Sheldon warms up the bar stools
what a role reversal
like spellin' Lake Erie, Lake Ear-ey
regard the retard
that senses like he can't hear me
obviously you can't see things clearly
And this is the world premier, see
the new will and testament
print it out and take it as a souvenir with no fee
I"m callin out all the Annie Oakley's
to take the time out to study
the bio-lyrical engineer in me
The Impossible Possible
A mythological prophecy
Deserted in a land of no beknown alimony
Just a dedicated ceremony, of
Poetic Testimony

Me, myself, and I

Intro:
Sometimes you may feel like
the only choice you have is to give up
Sometimes you may feel like
your friends are not really your friends
and that it's only you
left to escape the ashes
left from the unsettling fire
that you set your world ablaze
but maybe..

Chorus:
Maybe if we looked a little closer
stopped worrying about all the little things
and let it all wash back in
like captivating tides
flowin' through the ocean
Just look over the horizon
over moutains, and all the plains
and if the river runs dry
we'll sing and dance until it rains
so the sky has no choice but to cry
and together we'll fly, away
just me, myself, and I

Verse 1:
The difference between the good
and the bad
depends on the day of week,
time of day
maybe even the current fad
it depends on what we've achieved
how we're treated
how we're percieved
and how often that cycle is repeated
or maybe we're just to far gone
and our personality is to withdrawn
insecurities got us feeling alone now
we're questioned with a smile
all we can muster up is a frown
when all we ever wanted was that pedastal
but wheres the crown?
people say they'd always be there
but there not around
there not around
but we will rebound

Chorus:
Maybe if we looked a little closer
stopped worrying about all the little things
and let it all wash back in
like captivating tides
flowin' through the ocean
Just look over the horizon
over moutains, and all the plains
and if the river runs dry
we'll sing and dance until it rains
so the sky has no choice but to cry
and together we'll fly, away
just me, myself, and I

Verse 2:
Maybe its time to start takin' chances
time to just relax our mind
whats there to really lose?
and who knows exactly what we'd find
or maybe we should just be greatful for today
and start listening to what the others say
before its to late, and
someone takes it all away
So where we do go from here?
we're on a speed of space type mission
traveling through time like a light year
and the way to keep from being deterred
Just gotta keep our head positioned upward
and remember all the people that were there
cause those are the ones who really care
on this life long love affair

Chorus:
Maybe if we looked a little closer
stopped worrying about all the little things
and let it all wash back in
like captivating tides
flowin' through the ocean
Just look over the horizon
over moutains, and all the plains
and if the river runs dry
we'll sing and dance until it rains
so the sky has no choice but to cry
and together we'll fly, away
just me, myself, and I

Outro:
It may just be me, myself, and I
but we gotta lot of strength
from people that shape who we are inside
Deep down we know who will stand with us
through all of our hard times
And if you realize who you true friends, aren't
Dont worry about them
Cuz they aren't worried about you
and keep on pushing through

Past, Present, Future

Verse 1 - Past
Before the epiphany...
my outlook was nothing short
of a deserted chore on earth
hell hailed faiths fury, while I
shifted through gears with a hurst
sat and I thought on the day of my anniversary of birth
Each day becomes more comparable to the plague
Each vision I get becomes a little more vague
Always searching for the words to say
instead of just saying what comes natur-ally
Dear lord indeed I'd pray
Pray for something one day,
and then go against it all the next
by collecting cars and buying worthless assets
gettin lost in the world of toys and cuban cigars
cause its the only thing that would diminsh the scars
So by my lonely I would...
Connect those dots in the sky with the stars
creating new constellations from Venus to Mars
Wishin he would construct a new highway for me
and cement it with tar
Our selfish devil in us has left us all afeeling ajar
and the only thing left is to change
Man, look where we are...

Chorus:
Take a couple pictures
to see where you stand
on your own two feet
How can you be a better man?
Take a before and after shot
to see how you've changed
It's easy to say you're different now
but have you really changed your ways?

Verse 2 - Present
My current outlook is...
something more than a little bit of fig-
ment of my imagination...
Time to change the record and..
put the vinyl back in its lid
and get back to a moment full of celebration
All I know is...
in order to win you must defeat your opponent
and after you suffice, dont flaunt it just own it
and you gotta forgive if you ever wanna be forgiven,
gotta move on, if you wanna keep on livin
and you gotta stay strong to survive the collision
of the onslaught of our ancestors division
colorblind outlook to ignore the races
takin baby steps to advance each of our paces
erase the hate from our mouth, yea, its tasteless
to fight as one we can't be alienation
to win the wars we can't struggle with segregation
and the FBI can't keep covering up all of the faces
of innocent murder victims and filing them away in cases
gotta discontinue unsolved mysteries
because all it does is create new movie scenes
and news anchors just applaud the extra currency
This is lunacy, when will all the news broadcast stop?
and when will Natalie's body be found?
not by the public, but investigated by a cop
who knows no meaning of the words donut shop.
is that asking alot?

Chorus:
Take a couple pictures
to see where you stand
on your own two feet
How can you be a better man?
Take a before and after shot
to see how you've changed
It's easy to say you're different now
but have you really changed your ways?

Verse 3 - Future
After all is said and done
This is how I wanna see everything come together as one
Religion down to a science of a one creation of a son
instead of a million different branches bein shunned
fighting evil as political hethens breathin down a gun
layin down a law in which can never be un-done
Look what we've done...
The constitution needs re-written
Cause when along comes change
sometimes all you need is a revision
to tap out of submission
Here is my prevision:
Teachers should be paid better
for workin 9 hour days plus more
and goin home to work another 4
before they can open their paycheck that is already pre-torn
no wear and tear physically but their mental aspect is worn
And I think terrorist should be nullified and tourism liquified
I just wish the other nations were some that we could confide
But Diplomatic immunity will no longer garnish you truancy
And if you can speak the language, you fluentcy (fluent-see)
We all just gotta slow it back down
or you'll never even see the time fly by
To busy thinkin' we're the truth
while we're all livin a lie
Let's not be that kinda guy.
Past, Present, Future
The three way crossroad
that is guarenteed to apply

Chorus:
Take a couple pictures
to see where you stand
on your own two feet
How can you be a better man?
Take a before and after shot
to see how you've changed
It's easy to say you're different now
but have you really changed your ways?

Let One Be Loved

Intro:
Designer cloths
Name brands
Omega watches
For both hands
Fast cars
Big dreams
Defeated feats
But here's the thing....

Verse 1:
I come off as selfish, and cocky, and patronizing
cause Id say things like
You're nothing but liquid cement
and ill leave you ass out for the drying
And this makes people want to step to me
so if you're going to step to me, better step to me
you say you have teh antidote
well then I say I have the recipe
oh no, but now thats pathetic
apparently you can say all the right things
and still not be understood by the means in which you said it
Why dont you people get it?
If you're trying to faze me
you better try a little harder
if you ever want to daze me
and maybe I am a little bit crazy
from the passion thats installed in me
from my birth of my future wifes pregnancy
and when I leave this planet's quarantine,
I want to leave my kids everything
including a good father legacy
so they'll never have to work as hard as my mom and dad did
in order to leave me their multi million dollar inheritancy

Hook:
Red Light
flashing on my blackberry
gotta new message
umm thats kinda scary
isolated from the world
just want you to be my girl
When will you fall from above
When will you let...
Let one be loved

Verse 2:
Forget the first verse
put it in a hurse, and
drive 'em off to the dirt
so that the sentiments aren't to hurt
the only thing that matters
is what is next said
I'm just looking for the same thing
everyone else wants before their dead
I'd give you my whole life
i'd take a bullet for you
and i'd never leave your side
not without a fight
I want to classically romance you
wine and dine you like the 50's
and compliment you with phrases like
"you sure do look quite nifty"
Mad Men's syndrome, we call it MMS
from advertising agencies
to that billboard beneath my left chest
let me put a roof over your head
with a big ol' hot tub
and a big ass bed
and although I know it's better left unsaid
but I want your love, and unlike cancer
it's better off when spread

Hook:
Red Light
flashing on my blackberry
gotta new message
umm thats kinda scary
isolated from the world
just want you to be my girl
When will you fall from above
When will you let...
Let one be loved

Verse 3:
In order to slay the giant
one must not become a tyrant of isis
and study more history than mythology
and kill the oligarchy like ghandhi with his kindness
even though I know I'm not the nicest
Doing it big in this wally world
scan my bar code and you'll see the words price-less
But this anger isn't getting me any where
and my looks may be decieving
but its' only becasue I care
So I gotta stop pushing people away
Learning how to pull them back
or maybe in order for them to stay
I need to pull a little back
I know I need to watch what I say
Cuz im apprehensibly misunderstood
even if I was quoting The Fray
all through my lonely days
Still fighting faith
I know I have to find it
If I were only given a sign
you know I wouldn't decline it
Tired of not loving myself
I've gotta get that right
so that I can be loved by someone else
so that I can be her white knight
cause the green light only meant that I had no messages
so the dark knight in me is jumping off the ledge-end
going to finally let someone in, and
look over at my phone
What do I see?
Something that shouldn't be extraordinary
but a glimpse of how the ordinary should always be...

Hook:
Red Light
flashing on my blackberry
gotta new message
umm thats kinda scary
isolated from the world
just want you to be my girl
When will you fall from above
When will you let...
Let one be loved

Let one be loved

Revolution or Revoltion

Hey all, it's me again.  I'm remembering something that occured over the weekend that befuddled me.  In fact, in berates me.  What has society come to?  My disbelief of the things going on in todays world conflict with what I truly believe in.  It's left me feeling in a state of catatonic nature.  A stage of neurogenic motor dis-functions causing a behavior abnormality that has left me speechless by retarding my diagnostics.  Not sure what else to do than write, and in this essensce I will serenitize my provoking thoughts of antagonism.  Let it begin as my anti-psychotics flow from the tips of my fingers.  I notice my nails need cut, but we'll leave that for another day.  Yes, it ok to laugh. 

Everywhere I turn there is another church being built.  Muilti-million dollar complexes pave the empty lots that once used to be beautiful country side, destroying the land that our ancestors used to ho in order to provide for their family.  Land that never did anything to anyone to deserve such a wasted development forced upon it.  All it did was exist and it was taken advantage of just like they tried to take advantage of me the other day.  I wasn't going to let it go that easy. 

A man, with a bucket was outside in the cold.  He was wearing a nice shirt and a tie, standing on the medium curb at a four way intersection.  Pleading for money he cried.  Acting to the best of his ability as if he were talkin' through god.  I couldn't help but laugh and deny him any of my hard earned for the purpose of his visit.  How funny I found it that our economy is at nearly its worst point of all time with budget deficits, bankruptcy chapters through the roof, and a political war on congress that may never end.   I give enough money away in taxes every year to provide this earth with a plethura of churches.  I even feed the criminals that I look so lowly upon.  Yet, this doesnt stop them from asking for more?

When did god become so greedy?  I take that back, when did churches become some greedy.  I know many that are overshadowed by this notion that you must give back to the church in order to be worthy, yet outside of it they struggle to make ends meet.  Putting faith in god that everything will work out, while he takes their money.  For what?  To build more churches? To feed other nations, when people in our nation need food and shelter.  Im sick of everyone worrying about third world countries and all the problems they have.  We aren't going to fix anyones problems until we fix ours.  It's a simplimatic resolution if there was any. 

The Democratic party constantly plague Obama with scrunity that he isn't doing his job.  The same democrats that vanquished Bush when he was in office as well.  But looking back, we realize Bush wasn't half bad.  Looking back even further, we realize despite his alleged adultery in the office, Clinton was one of the best presidents we may have ever had.  Presidents become more loved after they are out of office.  I wonder why that is?  Probabley because they are no longer in the public eye and are no long percieved as the ruler of our states.  I've come to the conclusion that no matter who is in office, no matter their skin color, they will be hated eventually by at least 75 percent of the population.  That's just what it is coming to.  It's not that they dont do a good job, or try to commit to the change that they promised.  It's because we will never be satisified with anything, when maybe we should start to be satisfied with the cards that our dealt.   

Money, Money, Money.  I've never loved and hated something more.  The world revolves around it, cliche, I know.  But its true isn' it?  You either have it or you dont.  Maybe its what keeps us grounded?  I dont know.  I just know that i'll never judge a man by his wealth, because I can judge people just the same who don't have any. 

What is it with smoker's that give them the right to complain that they can't feed their kids, yet they are never to far gone from purchasing another 5 dollar pack of cigarettes to fix their urging needs.  One can say love comes in many shapes and forms, but sacrifice remains the greatest action of love one can make.  Smoking a pack of cigarettes a day adds up to 35 dollars a week, 140 dollars a month, and a poposterous 1,680 dollars over a year.  That is more than an individual gasoline bill over the same time period, let alone how many meals that would feed someone.  Over a 25 year period, that is your childrens college fund, thrown out the window so you could inhale toxic waste to no benefit. 

Yes I know the accountant in me is becoming a bit obnoxious, but no more than the absurdity that you bring upon yourself.  Let alot how ridiculous your words sound to me.  However, I have no right to judge you.  You will be what you are, and you will do as you please.  But when kids are involved, I tend to make it my business if they dont have food on the table due to someones self deluded desires.  I hold no amount of sympathy for these people.  I emphathize with them, for their addiction may in fact be real.  But what kind of situation would you like to encounter?  Letting your kids starve and watching you die of lung cancer as you get older, or feeding them unselfishly and being around for them as long as you possible can fathom on this Earth. 

We all tend to struggle with complexities of what the brain tells us we need, yet the underlying truth is, we are all just as weak mentally as the next person.  Hitting a breaking point that makes even the most rugged man crumble.  It's like seeing your dad cry for the first time and not understanding what is going on.  But now you see why.  I know its hard to break the habit.  As crazy as it sounds, cutting caffeine and snickers out of my regular diet was about the eastiest thing I've had to do.  And yes it bordered upon addiction.  If you knew me, you would confirm. 

I set my mind to something, and it was conquered.  Not because I couldn't afford it, but because it has transformed my body, internally and externally.  The element of mental comfort and additional strength was also added to my reputour.  The point im trying to make is that even if you have to sweat it out cold turkey, the payoffs will greatly overcome the contrary.  Being able to defeat stress and issues without drugs, maybe the biggest accomplishment of your entire life.  As sad as it sounds.  You would finally gain my sympathy and praise, and this world would be a better place for it. 

It all comes full circle when dealing with monetary values.  It's the circle of life, as Elton John may deny, but it in itselfs is a necessity.  However, what you do with that money, speaks more towards your character than anything.  At lesat from my eyes. 



Revolution or Revoltion?

Forgive you all

Intro:
The Golden Rule states,
"Treat others how you want to be treated"
So that's just what they'd get
If there wasn't any silver lining

Verse 1:
More chapters than pages
a novel not yet written
still pieces together the stages
on a semi-blank sheet of paper
with scratch marks in trashcans
full of crumbled up ink stains
left to evaporate like water vapor
having a hard time writin' sweet
when all I taste is sour
thoughts races a hundred miles an hour
without a concept of when to swerve
Not a coward
I can't think of a perfect way to word it
it's got to serve a purpose
my intentions are to strike a nerve, it's
what I observe, and
what all you deserve
You struck a chord in me that wasn't
ever meant to be heard, and
by the time I get to the last verse
you'll be left with your lips slurred
tongue tied and vision blured
I tried to sentence yall to life, cuz
your allegations were absurd
so instead of tear drop from a tat gun
your sentence is now deferred
I'll never forget what you've done,
but....

Chorus:
I forgive you all
for all that you've done
I'm just not the one
Forever
Somethings just aren't to be
through tragedy eyes
maybe then we'll see
that it's all just
Infatuation
Through thick and thin
right or wrong
somedays are short
somedays are long
searching for something more than
Expectation

Verse 2:
I've tried to understand your side
for the longest time
It's like starring out a curtained window
guess thats why they call them blinds
I always say that i've never felt like this before
but then just comes another whore
to take my heart
while im yellin please dont break it
Four years of my life is gone
She took it all and ignored my calls
all that I had to live for was dying
and as she took my heart and crushed it
caught her with another guy, busted
man I'm just sick
of all the the lying
Charades is just a game we play
the images that they protrayed
were in fact just like the rest, the same
couldnt accept the cheating and the blame
all of you should be ashamed
for your actions
and for my pain
cause I was left behind while
you mascaraded
should throw you like a fan through an alley
spiralying down a dark path valley
and let you see how it feels
to be jeopardized like that
being chased by the past
like it's a race
and I will out-last
and if you're in-one, I will out-run
I'll never forget what you've done,
but....


Chorus:
I forgive you all
for all that you've done
I'm just not the one
Forever
Somethings just aren't to be
through tragedy eyes
maybe then we'll see
that it's all just
Infatuation
Through thick and thin
right or wrong
somedays are short
somedays are long
searching for something more than
Expectation

Verse 3:
Every storie's a little different
from plot-line, setting to location
from levels of admirations
to superman reincarnations
life in smallville
with a Kent family blood relation
A word of advice now
and i'll let the rest decide whats true
just stop makin' like a lightbulb
only turned on with a screw
but you were the kind I feel for
I'll forgive myself for that too
maybe I cared for all the wrong reasons
 a little bit more desperate
 through each passing season
I forgive you for your lack of truancy
I forgive you for your high treason
I even forgive you for not wanting to watch Burt Reynolds
and Jackie Gleason
I forgive you waisting my time and my money
for putting stress fractures on my cranium
Reminiscent of the boxer Gene Tunney
I forgive you for using god as an excuse
for your leave of absense
He can judge you for that
and thats the ultimate line of defense
I forgive you for getting married
cause that highway we were headed on
never got us anywhere but opinions varied
I forgive you for forgetting about me
but where are you now?
I have a bachelors and soon to be masters degree
I forgive you for getting pregant
by a different man and having a son
but i'll never, ever, forget what you all have done,
but...

Chorus:
I forgive you all
for all that you've done
I'm just not the one
Forever
Somethings just aren't to be
through tragedy eyes
maybe then we'll see
that it's all just
Infatuation
Through thick and thin
right or wrong
somedays are short
somedays are long
searching for something more than
Expectation

I forgive you all

Tunnel Vision

Hey, it's me again.  It's amazing what all a drive around town can do for one's comprehension.  Everywhere you look you are reminded of all the places you've encountered while growing up, along with the constant change that comes with that.  Streetlights are everywhere, flashing and flickering at times because their star is about to run out.  However differing from space, there is no black hole with them, a simple light bulb will mend them new.  Don't you wish life were the same sometimes?  For when your light burns out, you simply replace it with a new one.  Sounds good in theory.

Unsure about what comes next but I know the key is some sort of contentment.  Happiness in the form of being ok with my life and the nature of my very existence.  I've been called a negative nancy far to many times for me to shrung it off and pretend i'm not.  I know I am, but how can I change?  One step at a time is what I've alluded to, and it can't involve a girl or a car either to help bridge the gap of darkness to light.  The more I focus on relationships, the more irritable my condition gets and the more I tend to push them away.  The entire time they think its them without me placing a single finger of blame.  The fact of the matter is, it's me.  I know it's all me, but that doesnt stop my actions from taking a toll on any of them.  I probabley scar them very deeply, not with actions, but with words.  My greatest strength, is also my greatest threat.  Self-consciously probably wanting them to know how it feels to be me. 

Starting to see things a bit more clearly, the more I open up to someone.  They aren't any person of interest to me, but of value none the less.  I've gained the ability to control my anger, albeit just a bit.  Focusing on the future no more, but only on the present.  I've been snuck in this rut so long that I still haven't fully developed into an adult.  I'm aware of this, but my maturation is nothing short of anyones journey.  Growing up is easy, it's proving to everyone else that you are is the hard part.  You can't speak your mind, truthfully, without people calling you a child or demanding one to grow up.  Nor can you speak without a censor of they'll begin to question your vocabulary.   For that, I crack a smile.   Because although theres people out there who will you bring you down to their level, there are also people that want to bring you up to their's.  People tend to forget that everything goes both ways.

Disconcerning threats and fears cause us all to do things we normally wouldnt do.  Im not sure if its the hormones, estrogen, or endorphins that cause these anomolies but it happens.  It's science, anatomy 101 for all you scholars.  But what causes fear?  What causes someone to react so defensively, when a simple question is approached to them.  I know everything isn't just black or white, but even the lightist shade of grey is closer to black.  I seek answers, dont we all?  I've started to write people off who can't answer anything more intelligent than, "I dont know."  Whats the point of speaking to someone of such indesciveness?  I'll tell you why.  We think with our hearts most of the time and not with our brain.  We all know we shouldnt, but what real control do we have over our feelings?  None

During these moments of clarity, each individual experience is different.  Whether it be the car you are driving or the instruments radiating from the speakers.  What is it about lyrics that transform us into a different person.  Music causes us all to have bi polar tendencies.  Going from happy to sad with the transition of songs.  From an upbeat Rihanna to a nearly teary eyed Adele, we as humans change emotionally.  And through the ruckus and annoying teenagers rummeging through town in there loud mustangs or rice rocket honda's, the music keeps you at peace.  The lyrics speak to you.  And in that brief three to four minutes, you are lost in another world of narnia. 

Speed can also do many things for the human soul.  It causes brief moments of intense meditation and solitude that leave your ora in a peaceful, yet dangerous and compelling state of being.  Even in the darkness of night, you can see light peeking through at the end of the tunnel.  Whether it be a streetlight, a stop light, or a hospital in the distance.  Whether it be flashlights of all the people you have hurt, still searching for what they've lost.  Whatever you see, it''s there.  The brain is no smarter that what our eyes tell it we see. And although the streetlights remind us of memories passing by, to our mind they are nothing more than a spectrum of non emotional colors.  But to our hearts, they are much more than that.  Each one respresents another road that our journey could have taken us, and before you know it it's gone.  In the end there are no more lights, well except maybe one.

Tunnel Vision

Can't Back Down

 Intro:
After he was exiled, he came back, it was something they never, ever, had seen before.
He had like the mountains, and thousands of people behind him, and came back,
With the strength of a thousand men, and all I remember is, all I remember,
Is they were chanting, in almost a whisper, LET THEM HAVE IT, and let nothing, nothing, hold you back...
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Verse 1:
Writers block has ceased, assisted by this beast,
That’s emerged from inside, but he's about to say his peace.
Typin this to the beat of lose yourself by eminem,
Pledging im never gonna fall for your type again,
She says its all in my head and im slowly going insane,
Or maybe it’s the message that my eyes are sending my brain,
Don’t be giving advice if you can't psychologize anatomy,
That’s not only sad to see, you're malpractice is a tragedy,
You're illusion of slander, was my delusion of grander,
But I saw your pollution of candor, with the resolution of a camera,
And this what I speak is the story of my life
Damaged by that preverbal knife, but lookin back with no end in sight
I don’t see things positive, because things are always negative,
Or maybe im just positive, that everything’s gonna be negative,
But that’s no way to live, writing this emotional spectrum, like roygbiv
Especially when blessed with lyrics that flow like the riv
Call me Jason Bourne, cause I’ve lost my identity,
It’s floatin away at sea into the infinity,
See just what exactly what you did to me,
All I wanted from you was some answers with sincerity,
But all I got from u was agony and misery,
But it’s uplifting me; tales from the bible are my serenity,
and the sin in me, prayed away with blessings of your blasphemy
The tornado has came, and you’re the one who causes that catastrophe
Realization is, that you’re not only the best kind of motivation
But inspiration brought the strongest out of me through hard work and dedication,
Validation is, Im back with a menacing declaration,
Osama's lucky I didn’t find him, he'd feel the wrath of vindication,
And now the blood in my veins are flowing warmer than ever,
Ill never get over you, whatever, that nevers been severed,
2 weeks have gone by, missed the idea of you,
Realizing the idea of you was a misconception untrue
And don’t think for one second that this is about you know who
Because you’re dead to me, and you’re unfaithful to you
With no credit to spew, cause heres the rebirth of something new
My engine up and blew, but you can’t stop me from what I do
Broken down hard, like an old muscle car,
But built back up with more horsepower than 458 Ferrar
And yes, Im with a doubt over you now,
Destroyed those ice cycles with a snow plow,
Oh wow, that last sad song just got raped by the violin bow. 
So until the second verse hits, Chow, Im out
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Hook:
Keep on going you just got to fight it
Keep on going cause it’s not to late
You can’t back down, You can’t back down
Keep on going you just got to fight it
Keep on going cause it’s never to late
You can’t back down, You can’t back down
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Verse 2:
I feel, I feel just the same
Different, the fingers won’t take the pain
When you're wrapped up in arms and legs
Like forgetting those familiar ways,
When it feels so natural, so unexplainable,
Oh so refreshing and irreplaceable
But now that’s gone, and this is where im at
Don’t be surprised by how I act, cause this is where im at
How dare you tell me you miss me, when all I do is wish we
Coulda remained together, but now u are public enemy
This isn't what I chose, Im not the one who left
But I am the one who fell for you from the first moment that we met
And don’t tell me what you deserve; I don’t care what you deserve,
all I had was love for you, now all I have is anger in reserve,
And this is my lyrically therapy, or so it seems
Or maybe im just sewin seams to patch up what it really means
And don’t tell me what I can and can’t say on any day
I don’t care who reads this, I speak nothing but the truth anyway
Im not the one with lies, but ill admit you got tears flowin from my eyes
But now those sockets are dry, water in the ground, like those busted up railroad ties
Yeah
I was loyal, but all that turmoil, made me turn all that mud into soil,
And it was you that I spoiled, but Im the one curled up in my bed all coiled
But I started listening to that song by BeBe Boogz
Wanting you back more than anything, but no choice to be old news
And I slowly got my appetite back, eatin my protein snack
Slippin on those gloves, just to hear my knuckles go crack
Feelin this beat, shadow boxin in the street
Another 2 more weeks and ill have hit my peak
And as I speak, the answers are what I seek
But I don’t expect to find them, but I can expect to rhyme them
And time them, and mime them, and shine them and climb them
Mountains, plains, hills, pains, whatever you put in front of me ill tear to shame
Eff the game, eff you lame, eff your name, eff the dame, and eff the train
 That’s ridin off, into the sunset, bathing suit, ocean wet, nostalgic net
full of memories, full of hopes, full of dreams, full of mopes, full of beams
Of light that shine so very bright, in the sky, in the night, up so high, want to fight
Everybody, everywhere, I aint scared, I don’t care, whatever it is, I can bare
Im stronger, and your wronger, and what’s been instilled in me is....Hunger.
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Hook:
Keep on going you just got to fight it
Keep on going cause its not to late
You can’t back down, You can’t back down
Keep on going you just got to fight it
Keep on going cause its never to late
You can’t back down, You can’t back down
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Verse 3:
Maybe Im just dreaming like Nelly
Or maybe ive just been watching to much damn Tele
Wanting some fantasy relationship like Zach and Kelly
Oh those good old days watching Saved by the Belly
But now Im not happy because of the shit that’s been thrown at me
And yeah Im a little bit snappy, And I’m even a little bit sappy
Cause I woke up with more thoughts of you today
Contemplating headphones to drown those thoughts of you away
I even deleted my facebook cause I didn’t want people knowing it was official
I tried everything I possibly could to dodge that missile
Let me just be real with you guys for one second
Even after all this, I’d take this girl back in a heartbeat I recon
I spend more time getting over relationships than actually being in them
Spend more time praying for what I want than I do my own sin
And this song isn’t mean to hurt anyone, just become a valuable lesson
Just show some affection, it would be a valuable progression
Don’t pull away and let it go down like the recession
Because that’s only going to lead to more transgression
So this was the minimal I could diss you
Subliminally I think criminal instinct kissed you
I love you, mentally and physically I miss you
And if the grass is greener over there, then I guess it got burnt too
But im not going to wait for you to make your mind up
Hurry up, I’ve about had enough, and this gravels getting rough
You tell me there’s a fine line between asshole and confidence
There’s a fine line between jealously and hurtfulness
Well Im saying there’s a fine line between war and loveliness
Pot meet kettle, damn im still fighting this loneliness.
Im putting this pen to pad because of this girl
Would have gave her everything, diamonds and pearls
My entire world, cancelled, just like my name is earl
Makes me so sick all I could do is bend over and hurl
I begged please don’t go, please don’t go
You did and you left, didn’t think you’d go that low
But I’ll show them in my darkest hour I can shine bright
And on a YouTube life compilation, maybe you’ll just be a highlight
Just so you know, a major guards up now, Teflon vest on my chest
Think you’ll find someone better than me? Nah im better than the rest
And all these scattered thoughts are my last will and testament
My body armors up, but im telling you to make a dint
Cause I don’t want this call to be dropped, switchin to sprint
Here's a hint, dont go 40 days without me, cause I dont care for lint
And maybe her being gone hasn't registered yet
but my legacy she will never forget
i'll never forget...
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Hook:
Keep on going you just got to fight it
Keep on going cause its not to late
You can’t back down, You can’t back down
Keep on going you just got to fight it
Keep on going cause its never to late
You can’t back down, You can’t back down
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Outro:
Ya know, I say alot of things I dont mean, but I also say alot of things I do mean. 
We all have are issues, We all lose loved ones, but its how we cope with those things
that determine how we come back.   You're stronger than you think, I promise you you are. 
Time heals all wounds and you'll come back better than ever.  This is my advice to anyone
that has trouble dealing, just write it down, and read it for yourself, it gives things a brand
new outlook.  Have fun with it, and enjoy your life, and know that the right person may be
right around the corner.  And sometimes, just sometimes, when you care about someone
so much and you them go, they come back.  Do you know why they come back?
Because they finally realize how amazing you really are.  But heres the thing, even if they
dont come back, you're still amazing to someone, be patient, I know its hard, but we'll get
through it together.  You're not alone  and I'm no longer afraid.  I confided in my friends,
boxing, cars.  Im better than ever now, but I still do miss her.  I still do miss you. 

The Ex-File

Verse 1:
This is the message my friend, this isn’t the end
It’s a cataclysmic event, called psychologic revenge
For this saga to end, another chapter must begin
For a boy to become a man, must be accepted as, a-men
Visualizing certainty, but swimming in a sea of doubt
And you’re about to learn a valuable lesson bout
This verbal assault, im taking it out on piece of paper
Brushin my shoulders off, relinquishing all the haters
Cuz these aren’t just words to me, this is golf to me
What you’re about to read is what I feel to a tee
No exaggerations anymore, no more stupid metaphors,
The glass was half full, but now that waters on the floor,
Empty, the glass is now kinda how I am as a man
I’d rather not give a f*ck, but im one to give a damn,
I’ll never be the guy that plays hard to get, or treat girls like sh*t,
Those are the type of guys that are on my hit list,
I’m not one to play games with any of you lames
You’re in no position to judge me, I don’t need to change
But I did…
And I just want to make one thing clear
Don’t just skim what I write, open up your ears
I didn’t change for you, sh*t, I changed for me
The emotional pain was to much for me to take physically
And I say this cynic-ly, like a viper spewin Hennessey
Burnin when I open my eyes, I wasn’t seein things vividly
So I’m splashin water on my face, to disperse the venom
But its already leaked into my blood, affecting my system
Guess im paying the price now because it’s taking its toll
We’ll call it the venomous mole, because it’s digging a hole
These are just the cards that im dealt, contemplating to bluff or to fold
I’ve turned into a bad beer cause I’ve aged bitter and cold,
Because when sweetness isn’t appreciated, personality gets tweaked
To form a new person, a new beginning, a new physique
And the weights build muscle tissue that cover up the weak
It’s my armor, my guard, hiding behind these verses that I speak

Hook:
I got a pocket full of money
A closet full of cloths
Garages full of toys
And a life that I chose
This is the path that I lead
The only path that I know
People shower me with hatred
Yet its envy that they show
The Ex-File

Verse 2:
Back against the ropes like Ali in Zaire
Wearing Pacquiao's shorts imbranded No fear
Persevere is the action of overcoming the severe
When you feel like the beginning is gone and the end is near
So I’m burying my soul in my materialistic obsessions
Only money can buy things that are guaranteed possessions
Because you can’t make someone care, but you can make someone not
And for this disgusting theory, I spit on, and I hope you rot
You never asked me how I was, when my aunty died
Yet u were there for your ex when he falsely cried suicide
Imma be honest, that really pisses me off inside
And I’ll be damned if I should just put those feelings aside
That’s the last time I ever use someone to try and confide
Cause all you get are lies, denies, and Jekyll and Hyde,
So eff a second chance, this is the 3rd person Lance
This is the ground that im standing, not moving from this stance
I’ll never let someone rip the passion out me
Try and you’ll get burned, not to the 3rd, but fourth degree
You know what they call people that are fake, a fraud
And I applaud your act, you dishonest jawed façade
This will be the last time I ever waste my ink on us
Cause there’s no more us, cause there was never any trust
And that’s not on you, that’s on everyone before
All the lies, cheats, hoes, sluts and all them whores
And im big enough to admit you didn’t deserve that end of the stick
But if I meant enough to you, you woulda stuck thru the thick
And I may be acting like a prick, but you deserve nothing more than a d*ck
Because to me all you are is just another sad and confused little chick
I cant believe I ever wondered what I had done wrong
I cant even believe im still writing of you in this freakin song
Putting my life into words, telling stories with rhymes
Running out of things to say but ill never be a mime
Still searching for that perfect line to make me change my mind
But everytime I rhyme I feel im running out of time

Hook:
I got a pocket full of money
A closet full of cloths
Garages full of toys
And a life that I chose
This is the path that I lead
The only path that I know
People shower me with hatred
Yet its envy that they show
The Ex-file


Verse 3:
Truth is….
I still look at your photograph, and remember all the times that we’d laugh
And on a scale of one to ten, it’s un-measurable on that graph
But how you gonna lay there and tell me about your past
Like you really wanted out relationship to freakin last
So now it’s easier for me to talk to u from my notebook,
Cuz you’re not talking back, and it’s easier for me not to look,
And so far, no girl can come close to fill your gap
But that’s not meant to put a feather in your cap
Our lives have taken us on changing lanes in different ways
That’s why god created us all with different strands of DNA
Some look for hope in the newspapers section of astrology
I had hope in loving you flawlessly, but
You asked for space, and I gave you astronomy
If you had asked for a lake, I would have gave you the sea
But then you wanted a compromise, conversations we had a thousand times,
But I won’t just be your friend, that idea that I despise
You see I got you figured out; you’re a lot like physics
Because I analyzed you like those ancient Egyptian hieroglyphics
You’re like a broken vending machine that I once yearned
Takes all my hard earned, and gives me nothing in return
But I finally got something back when I realized this was over
It wasn’t a new beginning, what it was, complete closure
You were like my drug, but once again sober
Getting rid of these weeds, like a ridin lawn mower
So I guess something’s are left better unsaid
And some relationships are left better off dead
So this documentation is going in a room full of file folders
Thinkin’ of starting an ex file, case agent, Mulder
Because this is an unsolved mystery, lock it and throw away key
And I’ve been singing this stuff for about a quarter century

Hook:
I got a pocket full of money
A closet full of cloths
Garages full of toys
And a life that I chose
This is the path that I lead
The only path that I know
People shower me with hatred
Yet its envy that they show
The Ex-File

Verse 4 (last one):
Unlike a nail, screwed and never got to enjoy it
Same routine, not my dream, I better destroy it
No matter what I did, it was never good enough
Wonder why I always tried to be good enough
Couldn’t figure out why I wasn’t ever good enough
So now I’m going to be alot better than good enough. 
Stealin those words from Joe Budden of Slaughterhouse
Dressed up today in my Ralph Lauren and Levi Strause
Cologne sprayed on with the scent of Giorgio Armani
More concerned about me than anymore of them hotties
And some may think that im a walking contradiction
I say all works of art are derived from fictional nonfiction
But today, im starting my own maturation
So I ignore them, and continue my dedication
First thing to do is admit my imperfections,
But that will never stop me from striving for perfection
And as my heart beat races, need medications and prescriptions
This isn’t something that you’d find in a men’s health subscription
And if you cant figure it out, these lyrics are my invention
And their intention, is to relieve me of my own intuition
So let me leave you with this, let me meet your expectations
Before you turn this off and start screamin profound degradations
But just be forewarned that this is me speakin of damages
Soldiered up for war, yeah, getcha effin bandages
Cause I got a message to all you pathological liars
Hope you get the karma of a Jason and Michael Myers
You cause a missin heart to be hung up on flyers
Keep printin off more, ink wheel spinnin like tires
Lost and never found, striking out, no pitchers mound
Buyin notebooks by the pound so my words don’t make a sound
Breakin lonely down, and you get a lone lie
Which is one to many to make a heart die
My intentions aren’t to pry but to sympathize
To all that’s been a victim of a bad surprise
And to the giver of that news I antagonize
Telling all the unfaithfuls to create platinum skies
By letting your rings drift up with the butterflies
Up into the reflection of ocean tides created by lone-ly cries
And this is the last memory ill share on this series
Cause I don’t consider this a song, I consider it my stories

Hook:
I got a pocket full of money
A closet full of cloths
Garages full of toys
And a life that I chose
This is the path that I lead
The only path that I know
People shower me with hatred
Yet its envy that they show
The Ex-File

Sky full of Lighters (Sample)

Verse 1:
By the time you hear this, you've already got the notion
that my words flow like the ocean in perpetual motion
and i know royce and em already bodied this instrumental
but im hear to make it a little more sentimental
not about to make this a poem without complexity
because my integrity stems from a place you'll never be
i was brought up, raise right, and never wrong
and when the record played, this was the only song
that i heard, every word, no grey, just black and white
I guess it made me see things differently inspite
all the other opinions that confronted me with confliction
soon realized that wasn't a personality trait for my addition
So I  learned to keep my mouth shut when it was best
takin my anger out on my heavybag, and off my chest
it went away and till this day I can say
that it worked for a short time but i can no longer play
with these words and these thoughts and these feelings
they have been piling up for awhile, knees need some kneelings
and just as eminems evil and royce da 5'9  is bad
im tellin the story of the broad way ballet that I once had
I'm a straight version of swan lake, gettin closer to the black swan
white ones shortly fadin, score is u, zero...natalie portman, 1
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Hook:
This ones for you and me
living out our dreams
we are right where we should be
with my arms out wide, I open my eyes
and now, all I want to see
is a sky full of lighters
a sky full of lighters...
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Verse 2:
Havent been writin lately, struggelin with inspiration
2 different sides of me got me struggelin with relation
2 different spirits got me contemplating retaliation
but my 2 boys keep sayin let them haters keep hatin
but why they always gotta try and figure me out
if she tell me Im not what she thought, I might just shout
cuz this games gettin older, and im gettin older
and it seems the more I grow colder, the more weights on my shoulder
and I say that in the singular form cuz it feels like ones missin
It got to heavy and collapsed, that bitch wouldnt listen,
So I shoot up some novacane to numb the pain, its a gain
because it stops me from spinnin off this planet and going insane
speaking of planets, I'd rather be an interplanetary mane
Chillin with the aliens, we'll call it the EBE game
which stands for extraterrestrial biological entity
Buzz light year,yeah, we'll be doing it till inifity
and when my intensity comes back to this rap its a wrap
already plottin my next line, like destination on a map
Given up on GPS, always fightin with that fake woman
the way she tries to control me, I might as well marry that woman
and that was a little joke, so laugh but dont choke
about to end this verse like a hoe's panties, get soaked
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Hook:
This ones for you and me
living out our dreams
we are right where we should be
with my arms out wide, I open my eyes
and now, all I want to see
is a sky full of lighters
a sky full of lighters...
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Verse 3:
Im sorry if that last line may have insulted your intelligence
but my words on fire, I been eatin' some hell-a-mints
about to annihilate the haters, scientifically destruct 'em with the elements
no not the name brand, but this is my last will and testement
like bruno mars was sayin, I want  sky full of lighters
no longer in my nightmares do I want a sky full of spiders
terrying my dreams, seems like life to me for a sec
but I wake up, refreshed, yawnin what the heck?
Puttin on the ralph lauren, gettin ready for work
Hoppin in the Vette, I be ballin like Dirk
Heads turnin as Im on my way, and today is just another day
in the life and times of TLA, and you are not me so watch what you say
And yeah, I may only be five nine in glasses
but lets not forget Mike tyson was 5'9 and kicked asses
so dont judge a book by its cover you little prick
or yall gonna get waxed, like the end of my Q-tip

Rosebud

Intro:
Through all the problems in our world
Im reminded of one singular object
That keeps me grounded and gives me strength
She is the Citizen to my Kane
She is my Rosebud
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Chorus:
Im takin back to the old days,
Where my rose bud was just a thorn
Glimpse of the haze
As thunder and lightning approached the storm
But then comes raze of sunshines to eleviate the rain
And every shadowing clouds just electrifizes the terrain
Flashback to my Rosebud
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Verse 1:
Trecherous waters got me demoralized with future daughters
and bringing them into this world full of creeps and all the slaughters,
Vanquished by the inevitable struggles of what they must have taught were
that fog and that mist of unsettling hate was brought upon her
Or maybe my hindsight is messed up worse than my peripheral
astigmatism causin cataracts that are dismissable
but by my admission that fusion must fision within this mission
causes plutonium to burn into the retinas of my vision
but with the economy going to shit that you can't convey
its blowing up faster than OKC could say Tim Mcvay
can't afford to visit the beachs of bombay with your fiance
These birds of pray disarray are a reminder of judgement day
Yeah the grass is always greener on the other side
becuase its land scaped, mowed, etched, and fertilized
while your stuck in life that seems full of dried thoughts of suicide
getting through with only headphones blarring choppers worldwide
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Chorus:
Im takin back to the old days,
Where my rose bud was just a thorn
Glimpse of the haze
As thunder and lightning approached the storm
But then comes raze of sunshines to eleviate the rain
And every shadowing clouds just electrifizes the terrain
Flashback to my Rosebud
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Verse 2:
You cant comprehend the meaning of life until you taste it
and I cant understand how this society makes it
digger deeper from this junk yard full of toxic waste, it
doesnt seem to be getting better from this landfill I submit, you got make shit
Monetary value has sky rocketed upon the height of apollo
tax brackets judged on the income of the poor and hollow
with the rich so far ahead theres no room for you to follow
left to swallow thier pride and rot in the hells of sorrow
Fillin up with 99 cent gas, we're all livin in the past
When did gas go up 3 more dollars, I'm payin out the ass
I know this world has stoplights to keep you from going to fast
but make sure you drive a nice car when the cameras flash
So you can hang it on your wall as somewhat of a momento
Just to keep your feats on beat and ride out to the Tempo
And when the world order sends you an email and you print the memo
We'll come pick you up in our chariots and red limo's
and I know that the speedlimit is 35 to keep the world of track
and the policeman around the corner is just there to get a pay check
maybe if he chases me a little longer he'll get into a wreck
And we can all fly executive together to Quebec
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Chorus:
Im takin back to the old days,
Where my rose bud was just a thorn
Glimpse of the haze
As thunder and lightning approached the storm
But then comes raze of sunshines to eleviate the rain
And every shadowing clouds just electrifizes the terrain
Flashback to my Rosebud
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Verse 3:
Gettin lost in the desert storm, just call it the operation
got my guns, ammo, missles, about to up my reputation
and this is my declaration to ingnite the pre-requisation
dont understand me wrong, intellectuality is my inner intimidation
The heat just makes me anticipate the snow
so my soul grows futher into it's comfort zone
cold and and somewhat unknown to the depths of the alone
with the abyss so close I can read the fine print like Rosetta Stone
But if it ends now, they'll be no future for me to get that girl
any chances of spoiling her with diamonds and pearls
and holding her hair back when she's had to much to drink while she hurls
and it twirls down the drain, I see the ridance of this apocalyptic world
My rosebud is still out there, I just have to remember that
If I have to fight for her then I best get ready for combat
Lets just lay it all out there, my arsenals on the mat
I put my helment on backwards on top of my starter cap
And if I have to take nine shots for you then call me fifty cent
then ill die trying with words of how my life was spent
And you'll read it with a means of some greater extent
It was you that allowed me to never circumvent my discontent
Thank you rosebud, for allowing me to vent, off for my descent
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Chorus:
Im takin back to the old days,
Where my rose bud was just a thorn
Glimpse of the haze
As thunder and lightning approached the storm
But then comes raze of sunshines to eleviate the rain
And every shadowing clouds just electrifizes the terrain
Flashback to my Rosebud